Whenever I think about it, I can't help but feel guilty.
Marcus used to be read to throughout the day, everyday and had a consistent bedtime routine. Of course, I had all the time in the world to focus on my only child then.
There was also no blog to write and I wasn't reading any either. I certainly didn't feel the urge to stay connected with the world, especially not through the cyberspace. Some weeks, I didn't even turn on the laptop or check my emails for days.
So the focus of the day was on 'entertaining' my only child.
When #2 came along, time had to be split between the boys but I soon learnt to manage that. Still, I wasted little time online, though there was a period when I was a little addicted to online communities and forums.
Fast forward to now, things are so different.
While I don't want to beat myself over it, knowing fully well that I always do my best in the limited time I have and things just can't be the same when I now have 3 kids to look after.
But it doesn't mean I am going to accept it as it is.
I learnt from a recent chat with friends that some stay-home mums spend more than 10 hours a day online, maintaining their blogs, Facebook and Twitter accounts. Which makes me curious of the time they have left to spend with their kids.
Though I don't waste time on online forums and hardly log in to Facebook (which I shun on purpose), I do spend time blogging and reading selected blogs. I'm always attracted to blogs that inspire me to do better in the many roles that I play and personal success stories that motivate me to do more with my life get my attention too. There is always so much to learn from others.
Call me old-fashioned, but I don't feel the need to jump on the bandwagon and be active on Facebook and twit one-liners just to stay connected with friends and acquaintances. Just like how I never get the appeal of an e-book. Nothing can quite replace the satisfaction I get from flipping the page of a real book after reading it.
While I don't spend hours online daily, I do turn on my laptop at least once on most days and it is a source of temptation that distracts me from more fulfilling activities.
Since I have been able to resist the temptations of iPhone and iPad (nope, they have never appealed to me even though the husband has offered a few new sets), I'm sure I can also do better at limiting my time online.
Perhaps it's time to unplug and be unconnected with the world for a few days each week.
I am a firm believer that I can only speak of spending quality time with my kids when I have sufficient quantity to spend with them.